What constitutes a mid-lfe crisis? Technically I'm 33 and since 50 is like the new 40 maybe I'm still too young to worry about this. I took a mental inventory of my life- the good, the bad, victories, defeats and everything in between. Needless to say I didn't get much sleep. My bad characteristics outweigh all my good, my failures trump my successes, my skills and experience don't match what I earn... When I really boiled everything down the only real solid thing I could come up with is that I can make an amazing grilled cheese sandwich. Right now the biggest competition in my life is that $100 panini maker my mother-in-law gave us last Christmas.
I've spent the last 12 years focusing on film production and writing and am still struggling to get a break. I get close but never seem to pull things together. Maybe I set my goals too high? Maybe I'd rather work toward lofty goals that I have little chance of reaching vs. setting low standards followed by goals that a slug could attain. I started to think I was being too hard on myself but I've settled with being brutally honest.
Every so often I require a small break-down that includes tearing myself apart. It makes me take better stock of myself when I put the pieces back together, I guess. Lost some sleep, shed some tears, but surprisingly gained some insight and a clearer vision of the big picture.
Still writing, still creating, still focused on my dreams. Oh yeah, and that DVD I purchased, the fitness one? Yeah, I'm doing that, too. Back to the grind...
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